My 2022 Goals/Bucket List

If you don't already know, I love making lists, and goals/bucket lists are no exception.

For a while now, I have been thinking about what I would like to do in 2022, and lots of things came to mind.

In no particular order, here is my 2022 goals/bucket list:

• Get my driver's permit, and practice driving
• Be an STM at a Joni and Friends Retreat (maybe even 2)
• Go to a Joni and Friends Walk 'n Roll
• Visit a friend in another state
• Get a tattoo in memory of my mom
• Get a second piercing in each ear
• Get bedroom cleaned up
• Redecorate my bedroom (paint walls/ceiling, new bed, put computer desk together, etc.)
• Paint on a regular basis
• Work on writing a book
• Go ice skating
• Go sledding
• Learn to sew
• Learn Sign Language
• Learn Spanish
• Get a DSLR camera
• Be in regular contact with my friends
• Go to at least one concert/event
• Learn how to make macarons
• Crochet/knit on a more regular basis
• Play the violin on a regular basis
• Do at least 4 things out of my comfort zone
• Cook Thanksgiving dinner
• Read the bible in a year
• Learn how to apply my own makeup
• Learn to film and edit videos
• Have my own YouTube channel, and post on a regular basis
• Be in a healthy, loving relationship with a significant other
• Decorate my bedroom for Christmas
• Grow more in my faith
• Make a t-shirt blanket with the t-shirts I want to use for this project
• Make meaningful gifts for friends, family
• Declutter my digital photos
• Binge watch Outlander
• Binge watch Call the Midwife
• Update my resume
• Learn to barbecue
• Draw with sidewalk chalk
• Fly a kite
• Go to the beach
• See the zoo holiday lights
• Read the entire bible in a year
• Spend a day (or more) in the city
• Make recipe binders
• Learn how to make macrame
• Go out for ice cream
• Try a sensory deprivation tank
• Pack and send shoebox presents for Operation Christmas Child
• Learn how to French braid
• Learn how to do a fishtail braid
• Figure out how to best take care of myself (exercise routine, mental health days, etc.), and keep up a regular routine
• Donate unwanted DVDs, CDs, and other unwanted items still in good condition
• Put together and decorate a gingerbread house
• Create an emergency fund and use it only for that
• Create a vision board/book
• Be a tourist in my own town
• Have one technology-free day a week, and find other things to do
• Write in my prayer journal on a more regular basis
• Create a self-care routine and keep it up
• Learn how to be a better friend
• Track money spent
• Increase my confidence/self-esteem
• Learn one new word a day
• Refresh my grammar and spelling skills
• Become more comfortable talking to people/more comfortable with public speaking
• Visit New York
• Learn to play the piano
• Relearn how to play the guitar, and play on a regular basis
• Write at least one song
• See the Harlem Globetrotters in person
• Figure out more topics to blog about, and post at least once a week
• Dye my hair purple
• Complete a video game
• Learn Tunisian crochet
• Practice yoga 3x a week

Yes, I know this is a lot, and I most likely will not complete all of these, but I would like to do as many of these as possible this year.

What would you like to do in 2022? I hope this coming year is a good one!

My First Homemade Gingerbread House

I love gingerbread houses, and I normally buy pre-made, unassembled ones to put together and decorate, but I recently found a gingerbread house cookie cutter set, so I decided to make my own this year.

I bought some candy and snacks to decorate with, and got to work on baking, assembling, and decorating.

I got frustrated a few times, because the pieces to build the house, as well as some of the decorations, wouldn't stay put after a while, when I had put the icing on, so I had to get creative with that.

I had ended up using a plastic food storage container to hold up the pieces, so they can stay put while the icing dries.

                                                                      So very messy!

                                                                 The start of decorating

My decorations for the house

The front

This front piece of the house broke as I was putting assembling the house, so I had to "glue" it back together before moving on.

Left side

The back

The part with the candy cane Kiss is supposed to be a wreath

The round red piece of candy is supposed to be a window

                       The right side                       

It was very messy, and I had to have a lot of patience for this, as it took a long time for the icing to set on each side, before I could move on to another part of the house.

But, it was worth it in the end. I know the completed house looks messy, but it came out pretty good, and I am happy with it.

Although, next year I might just go with a pre-made kit, just to save me all this frustration, and impatience.

It was a fun experience, though, making it from scratch!

What I Got for Christmas 2021

To those who celebrate, merry Christmas!! To those who don't, I hope you had a wonderful day anyway!

I can't believe Christmas is here again! Where has the time gone?!

I celebrated with my dad, a few of my siblings, and my niece and nephew.

For those who are curious, here is what I got for Christmas this year:

(NOTE: I am not trying to brag, I just wanted to share what I got with those who may be interested. I am very happy with everything that I got, and was not expecting to get every single thing I asked for.)

• WREBBIT Harry Potter Hagrid's Hut puzzle
• Microsoft Surface Go stylus
• A lanyard
• Dragonfly in Amber book by Diana Gabaldon (part of the Outlander series)
• Downton Abbey season 6 on DVD
• The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 1 on DVD
• Outlander Season 1 on DVD
• Bonanza season 4 on DVD
• Lego The Hobbit PS4 game
• Bike lights
• First 50 Songs You Should Play on the Violin book
• How to Read Music in 30 Days: Music Theory for Beginners book by Mathhew Ellul
• Believe CD by Andrea Bocelli
• Paints
• Paint brushes
• Canvases

Overall, I had a good Christmas.  I have already started putting together the puzzle, as well as playing the Lego Hobbit game.

I can't believe this year is almost over already. It went by so quickly!

How was your Christmas? How did you celebrate? I hope it was as wonderful as possible, and if it wasn't, I hope you will have better days to come.

My Favorite Christmas Movies

I am an avid movie watcher, and I absolutely love watching Christmas movies. 

Watching Christmas movies always gets me in the holiday mood, which makes me look forward to the season each year.

In no particular order, here are my favorite Christmas movies.

• A Christmas Carol
  There are 3 versions that I love: Disney's version with Jim Carrey, the one with George C. Scott, and the Muppets version
  
  
• A Christmas Story
  
  
• The Polar Express
  
  
• A Charlie Brown Christmas
  
  
• The Grinch
  
  
• How the Grinch Stole Christmas
  
  
• The Santa Clause trilogy
  
  
• Santa Claus is Comin' To Town
  
  
• Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer
  
  
• Arthur Christmas
  
  
• Home Alone
  
  
• Home Alone 2: Lost in New York
  
  
• The Year Without a Santa Claus
  
  
• Miracle on 34th Street (the original)
  
  
• Frosty the Snowman

If you celebrate Christmas, what are your favorite holiday movies?

My Winter 2021/2022 Bucket List

I can't believe it's almost winter! And that it is the end of 2021. Where has the time gone?!

As always, I have decided to make a winter bucket list, of things I would like to do this winter. I hope to be able to accomplish as many of these as I can.

In no particular order, here is what I would like to do this winter:

• Go sledding
• Go ice skating
• Make a snowman
• Have a snowball fight
• Watch Christmas movies
• Drink hot chocolate
• Go to a Christmas market
• Donate toys to children in need
• Make and send out Christmas cards
• Crochet a blanket
• Practice playing violin 3-4x a week
• Make Christmas cookies
• Work on cleaning up bedroom
• Work on writing a book
• Have spa days
• Make a gingerbread house
• Put Downton Abbey puzzle together
• Make paper snowflakes
• Build a fort
• Bake a loaf of bread
• Attend a Christmas concert
• Visit a far-away friend
• Spend a day (or more) in the city
• Decorate my bedroom for Christmas/winter
• Decorate our Christmas tree
• Celebrate my birthday with friends
• Put together and decorate a gingerbread house
• Paint my nails
• Host a game night
• Dye my hair purple
• Take winter pictures
• Make a snow globe
• Color in a coloring book
• Paint
• Binge watch one of these shows: Call The Midwife, Outlander
• Develop an indoor exercise routine (and stick to it)
• See a play or musical
• Buy a new pair of pajamas
• Write and send letters to friends
• Take a photo with Santa
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What are things you would to do this winter? 

My 2021 Christmas Wishlist

I can't believe it's the holiday season again. Where has the time gone?!

I thought I would share what is on my wishlist this year. I love hearing/reading about what is on other peoples' lists, so I figured I would do the same for those who are like me!

I do not expect to get all of these things. These are just things I would like to get. I will be happy with whatever I get.

In no particular order, here is what I would like to get for Christmas:

• Once Upon a Time Season 2 on DVD
• Bonanza Season 4 on DVD
• The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 1 on DVD
• Outlander Season 1 on DVD
• Downton Abbey Season 6 on DVD
• ChristmasLand by Jonathan Antoine (CD)
• Smartphone tripod
• Stylus pen for Microsoft Surface Go
• Paint brushes
• Paint palette
• Acrylic paints
• Canvas boards
• LEGO The Hobbit game for PS4
• How to Read Music in 30 Days: Music Theory for Beginners--With Exercises & Online Audio by Matthew Ellul
• Dragonfly in Amber by Diana Gabaldon
• Wrebbit 3D Hagrid's Hut 3D Jigsaw Puzzle
• UNO Flip! game
• UNO Attack! game
• Taco Cat Goat Cheese Pizza game
• Bike lights
• Lanyard keychain

I am looking forward to Christmas, and spending time with my family. 

If you celebrate Christmas, what is on your wishlist?

My Favorite Andrea Bocelli Songs

I first found out about Andrea Bocelli about 12 years ago, sort of on accident. 

I was at home one day, bored, and flipping channels on TV. I came across his most current concert at the time, and I thought it seemed interesting, so I decided to watch it. I have been a fan ever since.

Since I was able to see him live in concert last month, I have decided to share my favorite songs of his.

In no particular order, here are my favorite songs:

• Because We Believe
  
  
• God Bless Us Everyone
  
  
• Go Where Love Goes
  
  
• Cuando Me Enamoro
  
  
• When a Child is Born
  
  
• Dell' Amore Non Si Sa
  
  
• Resta Qui
  
  
• Funiculi Funicula
  
  
• Mamma
  
  
• Can't Help Falling in Love
  
  
• I Believe

My favorite Andrea Bocelli versions of Christmas songs:

• Santa Claus is Coming to Town
  
  
• Jingle Bells
  
  
• Adeste Fidelis
  
  
• O Tannenbaum
  
  
• God Bless Us Everyone (this song was in Disney's A Christmas Carol)
  
  
• Angels We Have Heard on High
  
  
• Cantique de Noel (O Holy Night)

He has such an amazing voice, and I still can't believe I got to go to one of his concerts!

Who is your favorite band/artist? What are your favorite songs of theirs? Have you been to any of their concerts?

My Wardrobe Wishlist

I have been going through my wardrobe to see what I want to add or replace, and have made a list of what I would like to get.

I am slowly figuring out what my style is, and what I like and don't like. It has definitely been trial and error figuring it out, but I believe I know what it is that I like, and want.

So, in no particular order, here is my wardrobe wishlist.

• Plaid/flannel long sleeve
  I love plaid/flannel clothing, and had a plaid long sleeve button-up in high school, which I wore a lot in the fall. I don't think I have it anymore, and I would love to have another one.
  
  
• Denim jacket
  Denim clothing is always a classic staple, and I would love to have a denim jacket (or two).
  
  
• Denim shorts
  
  
  
• Sundresses
  I'm not big on dressing up, but I think it's always a good thing to have at least a couple sundresses in my closet. I haven't had one in years, so I think it's about time I got another one.
  
  
• Classic white sneakers
  What can I say? White sneakers go with everything. I prefer sneakers over heels, so these would be perfect for me.
  
  
• Overalls
  I love overalls, yet I haven't had a pair in years.
  
  
• Paper bag shorts
  I had a paper bag pair of shorts that I loved, and I wore it out, so I would like to get another one someday.
  
  
• Newsboy cap(s)
  
  
  
• Initial necklaces
  I've never had any jewelry with my initials on them, and have always loved the way they look.
  
  
• Initial rings
  
  
  
• Birthstone rings
  My mom wore a ring with the birthstones of us kids, and I love the idea of birthstone jewelry.
  
  
• Abstract art rings
  
  
  
• Shacket(s)
  I recently heard about shackets, which is a combination of a shirt and a jacket. It seems like it would be very comfy, and I love comfy clothes.

What is on your wardrobe wishlist?

My Top 20 Favorite Christian Songs

I like and listen to a few different genres of music, but lately, I have been mainly listening to Christian music.

I started listening to Christian music in 2010, when I was having a hard time, and needed something to help get me through every day. 

There are many songs that I like, but there are some that are my absolute favorite.

So, in no particular order, here are my top twenty favorite Christian songs.

1. Truth Be Told by Matthew West
   
   
2. Scars in Heaven by Casting Crowns
   
   
3. Talking to Jesus by Elevation Worship, Maverick City Music
   
   
4. Free to be Me by Francesca Battistelli
   
   
5. Mean Girls by Leanna Crawford
   
   
6. I Can Only Imagine by MercyMe
   
   
7. The Father's House by Cory Asbury
   
   
8. Nobody by Casting Crowns featuring Matthew West
   
   
9. Revolutionary by Josh Wilson
   
   
10. There Was Jesus by Zach Williams, Dolly Parton
    
    
11. No Hopeless Soul by Stephen Stanley
    
    
12. One Day by Cochran & Co.
    
    
13. When We Fall Apart by Ryan Stevenson
    
    
14. Come As You Are by Crowder
    
    
15. Love Moved First by Casting Crowns
    
    
16. In the House by Crowder
    
    
17. This is Amazing Grace by Phil Whickam
    
    
18. Truth I'm Standing On by Leanna Crawford
    
    
19. What If by Matthew West
    
    
20. Peace Be Still by Hope Darst

Basically, all these songs are saying that God is there for you all the time, no matter what. That He will always love you, and will always come through for you, no matter what you do, or what happens in life.

He knows what is on our hearts and minds, and He will help you, if you just ask. 

Speaking the truth is always the best thing to do, even if it is hard. Especially if it is hard. And that is what God does. He speaks the truth.

The songs are saying that no matter what other people say or think, God says you are beautiful, that you are worthy, that you are His. That you can be who and what you were created to be, and not to let what others say and think to determine who you are, or what you are worth.

God doesn't break or go back on His promises, and he will do what he says, if you trust and believe in Him.

I am so thankful to have made the decision to listen to Christian rock, as it has helped me get through some difficult times. And I enjoy listening to it, even when I'm having a good day.

If you listen to Christian music, what are your favorite songs?

11 Years

It is 11 years today since my mom died, and I miss her more than ever.

We didn't have the best relationship, but I loved her very much (and still do), and never imagined she would have been gone as soon as she did.

It has been hard not having her here these eleven years, as she was the one I always went to to talk. If I needed to vent, or a shoulder to cry on, or just wanted to talk about whatever, she was the one I would go to.

Since she died, I have had a very hard time opening up to people, even family members. I'm not having quite as hard a time talking now, as I have people that I trust with speaking up, but this experience still brings up pain and sadness.

She was in the hospital for the last 5 weeks of her life, being so sick, and it took a toll on the family. While she was there, we spent most of our time either at the hospital, or at a hotel so we could get a break from the hospital.

As much as I want her alive, though, I'm glad she isn't sick anymore, and that she doesn't have to deal with the things she had to deal with.

My favorite memories with her, are her and I making rice krispies treats every year, laying on her bed talking about whatever was on our minds, and when my dad surprised her for one of their wedding anniversaries, by having us kids come on a trip with them.

I very much miss the little things like these, that I got to do with my mom, and I hope she is proud of us, for how far we've come these last 11 years.

I miss my mom more and more every day, and I am very thankful to have had her in my life for as long as I did.

Thankful in November

I can't believe it's November already. How did that happen?!

Now that Halloween is over, and Thanksgiving is on it's way, I have thought about things that I am thankful for this year. 

There is so much I am thankful for, but I will be listing 30 things here, since there are 30 days in November.

In no particular order, here is what I am thankful for this year:

1. Family and friends
2. My cats
3. My home
4. Having my own room
5. Music
6. My job
7. Books (especially if they are in audiobook form)
8. Clothing
9. Clean running water
10. Journaling/writing/blogging
11. Weighted blankets
12. My faith
13. Instruments (I am in the process of re-learning how to play the violin)
14. Living close to shops and grocery stores
15. Baking
16. Photography
17. Arts and crafts supplies
18. Joni and Friends
19. Movies
20. Games (board, card, video)
21. The opportunity to work from home if needed
22. Being alive for another year
23. Going to my first big concert
24. My local library's home delivery program
25. Being able to connect with friends and family through text, calls, email, etc.
26. My bike
27. Puzzles
28. The power of prayer (yes, prayer really does work!)
29. Traditions
30. YouTube

What are you thankful for? If you celebrate Thanksgiving, I hope you have a happy, healthy holiday with your loved ones!

My First Big Concert

This past Thursday, I got to go to my very first big concert, which was Andrea Bocelli's Believe Tour.

I am still on a concert high, and may be for a while!!

Back in August, a friend of mine had invited me to go to the concert with her and her husband. I immediately said yes, as I have been wanting to see Andrea Bocelli in concert for years.

For those of you who don't know, Andrea Bocelli is an Italian opera/pop singer.

I first heard of him about 12 years ago, while I was bored at home one day. I was flipped through the channels on TV, looking for something interesting to watch.

The concert he was doing at the time was on, and it interested me, so I decided to watch it, and I have been a fan ever since.

I was able to get some photos and video from the concert, although they aren't the greatest, as I was not very close to the stage.

Here are the best pictures from what I took.

For the Hallelujah song (the one by Leonard Cohen), his daughter sang with him. She has such an amazing voice, and is only 9 years old!!!

For the last 4 or 5 songs, he would start to leave the stage as the crowd clapped and cheered, then would go back and sing another song. Which everyone loved!

I recognized about half of the songs he sang, and loved every minute of the concert.

He was amazing, as always!!

I am so grateful to my friend for inviting me, and for giving me the opportunity to go to my first concert.

Now that I have been to my first concert, I am already itching to go to more.

Not just by Andrea Bocelli, but by other artists as well.

I am so happy right now, and will never forget this!!!

My Fall 2021 Bucket/Goals List

Since Fall is almost here, I have been thinking of things I would like to do during the season. 

I spend my time doing the same few things, and would like to mix it up a bit. Ok, maybe more than a bit!

So, in no particular order, here is my bucket/goals list for Fall 2021:

• Get my bedroom cleaned up
• Repaint bedroom walls
• Get a new bed
• Carve/decorate a pumpkin
• Go to a fall festival
• Watch Halloween movies
• Practice playing the violin at least 3x a week
• Decorate my bedroom for Halloween/Fall
• Go on walks 3x a week
• Bake pumpkin pie
• Cook Thanksgiving dinner
• Roast pumpkin seeds
• Make a Fall wreath
• Crochet a blanket
• Knit or crochet a sweater for myself
• Bake something at least once a week
• Make chili
• Have a Fall photo shoot done
• Visit the farmer's market
• Build a blanket fort
• Put together at least 2 puzzles
• Dye my hair purple
• Visit at least one museum
• Go to the movies
• Paint
• Host a game night with friends
• Make a pizza from scratch (or mostly from scratch)
• Write letters to friends
• Make hot chocolate
• Make brookies
• Take up yoga
• Learn how to sew
• Make caramel apples
• Purchase and light Fall candles
• Go on a nature hike
• Spend a day (or two) in the city
• Finish craft projects that are nearly done
• Start my own YouTube channel
• Get my driving permit, and practice driving
• Have a girls night out/in
• Visit a friend in another state
• Visit a corn or hay maze
• Drink apple cider
• Visit a pumpkin patch
• Make a scarecrow
• Go thrift shopping
• Go to the Andrea Bocelli concert
• Learn sign language
• Learn Spanish
• Purchase a new pair of pajamas
• Create a vision board

I know this is a long list, and I don't expect to do everything on it. These are just things I would like to do. 

Hopefully I can get out of my comfort zone, and do as many of these as I can.

What do you want to do this Fall?

People I Would Like to Meet

I have never had the chance to meet anyone famous/popular, but there are many whom I would love to meet one day.

The people on my list of those I want to meet range from actors, musicians, and people/families on YouTube. Even a former president and first lady.

In no particular order, here is my "bucket list" of people I would love to meet:

• Barack and Michelle Obama
• Brendan Gleeson
• Domnhall Gleeson
• Emma Thompson
• Kenneth Branagh
• Andrea Bocelli
• Josh Groban
• Michael Buble
• Robbie Coltrane
• Jason Momoa
• Hugh Jackman
• Jorge Garcia
• Ian McKellan
• Camille and Kennerly Kitt
• Morgan Freeman
• Maggie Smith
• The Weiss Family (The Weiss Life on YouTube)
• Mary and Peter Frey (The Frey Life on YouTube)
• Garth Brooks
• Mark Williams (Mr. Weasley from Harry Potter, Father Brown from the TV show Father Brown)
• Buddy Valastro (Cake Boss)
• The Miller Family (The Miller Fam on YouTube)
• Tom Hanks
• Lin-Manuel Miranda
• Jonathan Antoine
• The Knorpp Family (Knorpp and South on YouTube)
• Eddie Redmayne
• Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson
• Jim Carrey
• Viola Davis
• Octavia Spencer
• Julie Andrews
• Imelda Staunton
• Hugh Bonneville
• Jim Carter (Carson from Downton Abbey)
• Chris from the YouTube channel Special Books by Special Kids (SBSK)
• The Wallace family from the YouTube channel Crazy Middles
• Daniel Radcliffe
• Rupert Grint
• Emma Watson
• Warwick Davis
• Julie Walters
• Jason Isaacs
• David Thewlis
• Gary Oldman
• Helena Bonham Carter
• Ralph Fiennes
• Timothy Spall
• Natalia Tena
• Emma Thompson
• Jim Broadbent
• Pam Ferris
• David Tennant
• Stanley Tucci
• Chrissy Metz
• Christ Hemsworth
• Liam Hemsworth
• Daniel Dae Kim
• Brendan Fraser
• Pedro Pascal

Are there any famous people you would like to meet?

Current Favorites: August 2021

I haven't done one of these in a while, so I thought I would share what my current favorites are.

I have found a few new (to me) things that I have come to love, and thought I would share them here.

In no particular order, here is what I am currently loving:

• Talking to Jesus song by Elevation Worship & Maverick City
  I recently found out about this song from a friend, and have loved listening to it ever since. It is about talking to Jesus as a friend, and how He is always there for you, no matter what.
  
  
• Microsoft Surface Go tablet
  For a while, I was debating between getting a laptop and a tablet, and after reading reviews, I went with getting a Microsoft Surface Go tablet. I wanted something that was easy to carry around, and didn't take up too much space. It is fast, has all that I want, and is very easy to use.
  
  
• Weighted blankets
  I was recently having a hard time, and I couldn't sleep. I used my weighted blanket one night to try and help me calm down, and it made a huge difference for me. I was completely calm that night, and have been since then. Weighted blankets really do help!
  
  
• Sweet Tarts Mini Chewy candy
  One of my brothers recently bought these, and I was able to try it. They taste like the original Sweet Tarts, the only difference is that this is in a ball form. I love Sweet Tarts, so I knew I would like these.
  
  
• Love in Faith clothing (loveinfaith.life)
  Love in Faith has some amazing clothing, tumblers, and other items that have Bible verses and faith quotes on them. I recently heard about this company from one of my favorite YouTubers, and decided to check them out. I have a few t-shirts already, and I absolutely love them.
  
  
• Unlocking Us with Brene Brown (podcast)
  In this podcast, Brene hosts guests, and they talk about everything from race, literature, family, health, and much more.
  
  
• Good Life Project (podcast)
  This podcast focuses on mental health, and how to have as good a life as possible.
  
  
• Gardenscapes and Homescapes game
  These games are apps, which I am playing on my tablet. In both, a butler goes back to his childhood home, and helps remodel the home and garden. You get to help him choose how the home and garden look, and they are very addicting games!
  
  
• Garden Veggie Straws
  These are SO good! I don't know what it is about these things, but these straws are addicting, and they are good for you!
  
  
• Spotify
  I gave in and got a Spotify account, and absolutely love it. I can make different playlists for if whenever I want to listen to one genre one day, and another genre another day. I have been getting into podcasts lately, and I have been listening to them on Spotify.

Words That Describe Me

 

Introvert 

Shy

Writer

Photographer 

Knitter

Crocheter

Night owl

Linguist/word lover

Curious

Traveler

Violinist-to-be

Music lover

Reader

Water lover

Foodie

Empathetic

Sympathetic

Emotional

Animal lover

Imperfectly perfect

List-maker

Thrifter (I love thrift stores, and finding great things!)

Rainy day lover

Friendly

Video gamer

Board/card game lover

Daughter

Granddaughter

Sister

Niece

Cousin

Aunt

Friend

Colleague

I know this is a lot, but there is more to me than what you can see. 

So often, it is hard for me to share parts of myself, so people don't always get to see the whole me (which is something I want to work on, especially with my friends).

What words describe who you are?

What I Would Like To Let Go Of

For years, I have been holding on to things that aren't good for me, and I want to change that.

Holding on to these things brings me stress, anxiety, and an overall unhealthy lifestyle. It will be hard to let go of these things, as I have been holding on to them for many years, but I am willing to make a change, to let go.

So, here are the things that I would like to get rid of:

Fear (of judgment, of the future, etc.)

Self-doubt

Anxiety

Depression

Feeling worthless

Negative self-talk

Self-criticism

Negative body image

Jealousy

Comparing myself to others

Worrying about what other people think of me

Worry about the future/things I can't control

Unhealthy eating habits

Spending more than I am saving

Feeling like no one really wants to hear what I have to say

I am still in the process of figuring out how to change, and to let go of all of these, but I believe I am ready for the challenge, and that it is definitely time to let go, so I can feel better about myself and my life.

What are things you want to let go? How do you plan on letting go of them?

Already Missing Camp

I got back home from camp Friday evening, and I am already missing it.

The week went by so fast, I am sad that it's over already.

I arrived there on Saturday, June 12th, with a friend who was also serving. After getting settled, we went to Taco Bell for some dinner. I had been craving Taco Bell for quite a while, so that was perfect.

Sunday, the other STMs (short term missionaries) arrived, and we had training, lunch, more training, and a bonfire in the evening.

Monday, we had some final training, got ready for the families to arrive, and the families arrived that afternoon.

I did not have a camper, as I was serving in the sweet shop (which is where I served at the last retreat I went to), but it was still fun meeting and cheering for the families that arrived.

We had an ice cream social that afternoon, and a meeting just for STMs, to talk about how the day went.

Tuesday, we had morning devotions, breakfast, and everyone went about to different things in the morning. I helped bake some things for when the sweet shop opened that afternoon (brownies and brookies--half cookie, half brownie treats), and then I was able to sit in on some of the activities the campers were doing.

The campers made a beaded cross keychain, and then played this game where one person had a bucket on their head, and another person had to try and get golf balls into the bucket.

At some point during the game, the director of the camp came by, and everyone was saying he should play. So, he put the bucket on his head and was ready to go.

I was then voted to try and throw the balls into the bucket, which was a little awkward for me, but it was fun. I didn't get any in, but that's ok. I enjoyed participating.

There was a carnival that evening, with typical carnival-style games, as well as bouncy houses, a horse-drawn carriage ride, a woman drawing caricatures, and a fire truck that everyone could check out.

I didn't play any of the games, but I did go on the carriage ride (horses are my favorite animals), and I got a caricature done of myself.

Wednesday, there was morning devotions, then in the afternoon I was in the sweet shop again. I helped with preparing for the parents dinner that evening, and then I got to check out the petting zoo. I love animals, so I enjoyed seeing the animals there (a pig, some baby and adult goats, ducks and chicks, rabbits, and chickens and roosters.

There was a dance on Wednesday evening as well, that I checked out. I danced a little, and watched the rest of the time.

Thursday, I helped out with a women's lunch, and got to eat with them as well. We had afternoon activities for the campers again, and in the evening there was a talent show and karaoke. I watched the talent show, and then hung out in the sweet shop for a bit.

We were right on the lake, so a couple of the days, I went down there to hang out a bit, when I needed a break. I love water, so being by the lake was so calming for me.

Friday, we had breakfast, helped the families pack, and then had a closing ceremony. STMs and families got to share what was on their mind if they wanted, and everyone was so thankful to have had the opportunity to come to camp.

The campers were given teddy bears, as a sort of parting gift from the camp, which I thought was sweet. There were a few left after everyone got theirs, and I was allowed to take one home for myself.

After the families left the STMs and leaders had a final debrief, where we talked about all that went on during the week, and how we were feeling. I am very shy, so I didn't say anything, so I just listened to what everyone else said.

All in all, I had an amazing time, and am so grateful that I was able to go this year, and I hope that I get to go again next year.

Seven More Days!!!

Joni and Friends Retreat is officially happening this year, and I am SO happy about that!!

I have so missed the camp, and the people there.

This year, there is three weeks of the Michigan retreat, as a special for this year because of how last year went.

Week one has started today (for the volunteers; the campers/families come tomorrow), week 2 (the week I am going to) starts next Sunday, and week 3 starts the Sunday after that.

I am SOOO excited!!

I am about halfway packed, and will finish packing throughout this coming week, as I don't want to put things in my suitcase until I absolutely have to.

Michigan is one of my favorite places to visit, and have so missed going there.

I was easily able to get the time off that I needed from work (my workplace is flexible with things like vacation and work schedules) a couple of months ago, so that has been one less thing to worry about, which is nice.

2019 was the first (and only, so far) time I got to go on a Joni and Friends retreat, and was able to make several friends there, as well as making some amazing memories, and I have been itching to come back and make more of these memories ever since.

The people that have put together this year's retreat have put things in place, so we can have a safe yet fun time at retreat, while still observing precautions that are in place, due to the pandemic. They were keeping in constant contact with the place we will be staying at, to see what the situation was in Michigan, to decide whether or not retreat would take place.

I am so glad things have improved/not gotten worse, so that we are able to have retreat this year, as I know many people would have been disappointed if it was cancelled for another year.

I am so looking forward to seeing my friends again, to make new memories, and to serve the campers/families that will be coming to camp!

Do you have any fun plans for the summer? 

My TV Show/Movie Bucket List

 There are many TV shows and movies I would like to see

TV Shows

• Fear the Walking Dead
• Father Brown
• Bonanza (I have seen the first season, and some episodes of other seasons, but I would like to watch the show in its entirety)
• American Horror Story
• Call the Midwife (I have seen the first season, and have yet to watch the other seasons)
• Outlander (as with Call the Midwife, I have only seen the first season)
• The Crown (yet another show I have only seen the first season of)
• This is Us
• Bridgerton
• Cobra Kai
• How To Get Away With Murder
• The Chosen
• His Dark Materials
• Gossip Girl
• Anne With an E
• The Great British Baking Show
• Falling Skies
• Self Made: Inspired by the Life of Madam C. J. Walker
• The Great British Baking Show
• The Last Dance (about basketball star Michael Jordan)
• How to Get Away With Murder

Movies

• Ma Rainey's Black Bottom
• Avatar 2
• Ghostbusters: Afterlife
• Minions: The Rise of Gru
• Peter Rabbit 2: The Runaway
• Mortal Kombat
• Cruella
• Fantastic Beasts 3
• Halloween End
• The Passion of the Christ: Resurrection
• Pinocchio
• Raya and the Last Dragon
• Bob's Burgers: The Movie
• Godzilla vs. Kong
• Hotel Transylvania 4
• Sing 2
• Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 3
• Tom & Jerry
• Judas and the Black Messiah
• Downton Abbey 2
• A Quiet Place Part 2
• Black Widow
• Luca
• Respect
• The Addams Family 2
• A Week Away
• Christmas Chronicles 2
• Jingle Jangle: A Christmas Journey

What are some shows and movies you would like to watch? What are your favorites you have already seen?

My Summer 2021 Bucket List

Summer is quickly approaching, which means warmer weather where we can do more things outside.

After the year we all had, I want to get back into doing things outside, going places, and seeing friends and family in person more.

I am normally an introvert, but I crave connections with people, and with nature. So, not being able to see others, or go to many places, was hard. I am so happy things are starting to take a turn for the better, and hopefully things can go back to as close to normal as possible in the future.

So, in no particular order, here is my summer 2021 bucket list.

• Volunteer at Joni and Friends camp
• Make s'mores
• Ride my bike at least 2x a week
• Go to the local farmer's market
• Make lemonade
• Clean my bedroom up
• Paint my bedroom walls
• Get new furniture for my room
• Dye my hair purple
• Have a game night with friends
• Knit or crochet at least 2 items
• Have a picnic in the park
• Spend a day (or more) in the city
• Visit my local zoo
• Go to the movies
• Paint
• Have at least one spa day
• Host a bbq
• Draw with sidewalk chalk
• Bake once a week
• Go horseback riding
• Practice playing the violin at least 3x a week
• Watch a movie at a drive-in theater
• Make homemade popsicles
• Build a fort
• Build and fly a kite
• Go to the beach
• Read outside
• Visit a farm
• Have a girls' night out/in

What is on your summer bucket list? Anything fun planned?

Current Me

 

Photography

One of my biggest passions, I am always looking for opportunities to capture something. I mainly photograph nature, as well as my cats, but would like to broaden my portfolio with other types of photos (portrait, wedding, party, etc.) as well.

Violin

I played the violin for a couple of years in elementary school, and then quit because I "got bored." I very much regret that decision, and am trying to get back into playing again. I recently bought a new violin, and have yet to play. I haven't played in over 20 years, so I am very rusty, but I am more than ready to learn how to play again.

Baking

Another passion of mine, I love making things, especially treats, so that I can experience the joy of other people enjoying my creations. I went to school for baking, and am hoping to one day work at a bakery, or a place that sells baked goods.

Arts and Crafts

I love making things, as I get to use my hands. My favorite crafts are photography, knitting, crochet, painting, and working with clay. I would also like to learn how to sew, write songs, learn how to play the piano, learn how to play the ukulele, learn how to play the guitar, and learn how to make jewelry.

Words

I love words, even though I have a hard time with them a lot of the time when I have to speak. Writing/blogging is the best way for me to get my point across, as it gives me enough time to think about what I want to say without the pressure of a time limit. One thing I would love to be able to do is to write and publish at least one book in my life.

Private

I am a pretty private person, so it takes me quite a while to open up to people. I don't really like to share much about myself, although once I feel comfortable with someone, I may tell them about myself (usually only if they ask).

Travel

I am a big homebody, but I also love to travel. I haven't been to many places, though, and would love to change that. New places, old/familiar places, there are many cities, states, and countries I would love to visit/go back to.

Shy/Quiet

I am a very shy/quiet person, and have been for as long as I can remember. It can be very hard for me to say what is on my mind, how I am feeling, or to ask for help if I need it.

Games

I love games, and have quite a collection of board games, decks of cards, and video games. Ever since the pandemic started, I have been playing video games a lot more than I usually did before. It helps pass the time, gives me something to do, and allows me to relax when I need to.

My Current Playlist

I am always listening to music, as it helps me relax, and gets me through a tough time, or when I just need a pick-me-up.

I listen to a mix of country, Irish, pop, and Christian rock music, so there will be a mix of songs from each genre.

I switch between genres depending on how I am feeling at a particular time. For quite some time, I was only listening to Christian rock, and have starting listening to country music again. I am switching between both of these at the moment, as they are probably my favorite genres.

So, in no particular order, here are my current favorite songs:

• Truth Be Told by Matthew West
• Angels Among Us by Alabama
• A Thousand Years by Christina Perri
• Go Rest High on That Mountain by Vince Gill
• Revolutionary by Josh Wilson
• Free to Be Me by Francesca Battistelli
• The Dance by Garth Brooks
• Unanswered Prayers by Garth Brooks
• Butterfly Kisses by Bob Carlisle
• I Believe by Andrea Bocelli
• Because We Believe by Andrea Bocelli
• God Bless Us Everyone by Andrea Bocelli
• Go Where Love Goes by Andrea Bocelli
• Remember When by Alan Jackson
• A Place in the Choir by Celtic Thunder
• The Unicorn by The Irish Rovers
• 10,000 Reasons (Bless the Lord) by Matt Redman and the Passion Band
• Help is On the Way (Maybe Midnight) by TobyMac
• I Can Only Imagine by MercyMe
• Down to the River to Pray by Alison Krauss
• I Will Wait by Mumford & Sons
• You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban

What songs are currently on your playlist? 

My Spring Bucket List

Now that spring is here, and that it is getting warmer (and nicer) out, there are more things I would like to do in the coming days/weeks/months. 

I get bored very easily, and am always looking for things to do. So, hopefully with the nicer weather comes the motivation to do more of the things I want to do.

In no particular order, here is what I would like to do this spring.

Dye my hair purple

I have been wanting to dye my hair for ages, especially purple, as that is my favorite color. I tried doing this last year, but for some reason, it didn't work out. I used dyes that didn't necessarily need to have bleach used before, but I think because my hair is too dark, the color didn't show up. I am planning on trying again, with bleach/a hair lightening process, to see how that goes.

Ride my bike at least 2x a week

Bike riding is one of my favorite ways to exercise, and now that it is warming up outside, I can start riding my bike again. I want to try and ride 2 days a week, and go from there.

Work on cleaning up my room

I am not a neat freak, and my room is proof of that. I have had zero motivation to clean it up, though, and I want to work on that. I can never keep my room cleaned, and I am hoping I can figure out ways to change that, so I don't have this big of a problem anymore (I have a lot of stuff to go through, and it is overwhelming).

Crochet or knit at least 3 projects

I love to make things, but I don't do this nearly as often as I want to. The last things I made were a sweater for my dad, back in December, and a cape for myself (that isn't finished yet). Crocheting and knitting really helps me relax, and it is worth it when I see the finished product.

Practice cake decorating skills

I went to school for baking and cake decorating, and yet I have hardly used those skills. I think it is time I get back into the swing of things, and make it worth all the effort I put in at school.

Learn how to apply makeup

I have never bothered to apply makeup (or to just wear makeup in general), and I have been wanting to learn for a while now. I really want to get creative, and try different looks to see how it looks on me.

Plant veggies and flowers

Veggies and flowers tend to die after a while at the hands of my family and I, but I want to try again this year with a garden. I love seeing things grow, and to be able to get something out of planting things. I want to learn how to properly take care of plants, to have them live longer, and to have something beautiful to look at every day.

Read 3 new-to-me books

I love to read, and would like to branch out of my go-to genres/books, and read something new.

What are some things you would like to do this spring?

Joni and Friends Michigan Retreat-Heaven on Earth

This year, Joni and Friends is putting safety measures in place, so we can have retreats again.

I am so happy that we can (hopefully) have retreats again, as it is an experience you will definitely want to have.

At retreat, people with disabilities and their family can come for a week of fun, relaxation, and faith, where they can feel like they belong, without judgment.

The people there truly care about everyone, and go out of their way to make each person feel special, welcome, included, and valued as the person that they are.

I am going to week 2 of the Michigan retreat, which I got to go to in 2019. This year, they are having 3 weeks, so more families can experience the joy of retreat.

They are still in need of STMs (volunteers) to help out each week, so if you or someone you know is interested, you can go to the Joni and Friends website HERE, go to the Ministries tab and click on Retreats and Getaways, then click on Family Retreat, where there is a list of all the retreats this year. 

Please consider volunteering for Family Retreat. It is an experience of a lifetime that you will not want to miss.

You get to make new friends, see old friends, minister to those with disabilities and their families, and strengthen your faith at an amazing, beautiful campus.

You can check out Week 1 of the Michigan Retreat (June 7-11) HERE, Week 2 (June 14-18) HERE, and the special Week 3 (June 21-25) HERE.

These retreats really are like heaven on earth. I am so grateful that I got to go in 2019, and have been counting the days until I could go again!

Please share this information with anyone who may be interested in serving. They may have to cancel if they don't get enough volunteers, and I do not want that to happen. Safety precautions are being put in place, so that we can serve, and have fun, in a safe, secure way.

Joni and Friends does amazing work for people with disabilities all over the world, and these retreats are worth experiencing!

16 Questions

 I got these questions from Girls' Life magazine, and decided to answer them in this post.

These are my own honest answers.

1. What movie or book character do you relate to most?
   Hmm...this is kind of a hard one. There are a few that I can really relate to, so it is hard to choose just one. 
   
   One is Matthew Cuthbert from the Anne of Green Gables series. He is soft spoken, doesn't really like to be around a lot of people, and prefers peace and quiet.
   Another is Bilbo Baggins, from The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings series. He likes being at home more than anywhere else, he doesn't like being around a lot of people, he has a quiet nature. But he is also known to enjoy an adventure or festivity from time to time.
   The third is Konstantin Dimitrich Levin from Anna Karenina. According to one description of him: "A classic introvert, Levin is happiest when he is alone to contemplate the world, engaged with thoughts that are often at odds with conventional wisdom. He avoids the city at all costs, preferring the solitude and authenticity of the countryside." Pretty much sounds like me.
   
   
2. Do you consider yourself more of an introvert or an extrovert?
   Definitely introvert. I get drained easily from interacting with people, I prefer to do solitary things, and I like peace and quiet.
   
   
3. Which family member are you closest to?
   Probably my dad. It used to be my mom, but once she died, I think I went to my dad more. 
   
   
4. What's your dream career?
   Hmm....There are a few things I really want to do, and if they can be combined, I would be in heaven! Those are photography, baking, and writing.  If I could combine those in some way, then I would be very happy!
   
   
5. What's your proudest moment?
   There are a few moments that I have, that makes it very hard to choose from. But I think the one that I am probably the most proud of, as either graduating from college with my baking certificate (that took a lot longer than planned), or going on a trip completely on my own, with no help from anyone. I usually tend to want to go with someone, and have help with going on the trip, but with the trip I took by myself, I decided to step out of my comfort zone.
   
   
6. What superpower would you want to have?
   I can't pick just one, so the ones I would want to have are flying, teleportation, and invisibility.
   
   
7. What is something you want out of a relationship?
   I would really like to get an acceptance of who I am, of all of me. I am working on that myself, but I would love to have acceptance from another as well.
   
   
8. What change do you want to see in the world?
   I would like to see more communication, compassion and empathy in the world. Then, we would more likely be understanding of why people are the way they are. 
   
   
9. What's something you're afraid of?
   My biggest fear is of death. I don't know if it's the process of dying, or the thought of being dead that I am scared of the most, but death is something that has scared me for a very long time.
   
   The biggest fear after that, is speaking up. I am a very shy person, so I have a hard time talking to people I don't know, or whom I am not friends with. I am always worried about what other people would think, and it holds me back from saying a lot of the things I want to say.
   
   
10. Who inspires you the most?
    I think the person who inspires me the most is Joni Eareckson Tada. She has been through a lot in her life, yet she keeps going. She has a fighting spirit, and when she has a hard day, she isn't afraid to ask for help. Even with all she has been through, she has helped thousands of people around the world with her ministry, and is still going strong.
    
    
11. What's your favorite memory?
    My favorite memory is probably Joni and Friends camp. I went for the first (and only time so far) in 2019, and fell in love with the retreat. I didn't get to go in 2020, because of the pandemic, but as of right now, it seems like it will take place this year. 
    
    
12. What song means the most to you?
    Truth Be Told by Matthew West. It says what I have had trouble putting into words for years.
    
    
13. What goal do you have for yourself this year?
    There are two big goals I have. One is to become healthier (physically, emotionally/mentally, and spiritually), and the other is to be more confident in myself.
    
    
14. What's something you've always wanted to try?
    One thing I have always wanted to try is to make macarons. I love to bake, so I would love to be able to make macarons one day.
    
    
15. What values are most important to you?
    The values most important to me are compassion, empathy, patience, respect, courage, forgiveness, growth, listening, learning, resilience, creativity, and balance.
    
    
16. What motivational quote always keeps you going?
    "If you want to fly, give up everything that weighs you down." by Buddha
    
    It was hard to choose just one quote, but I really like this one.

20 Dreams

1. I dream of going on a Wheels for the World mission trip through Joni and Friends
2. I dreamed of being a police officer when I grew up (I changed my mind years ago, when I thought about what they go through)
3. I dream of writing and publishing at least one book
4. I dream of being more confident in myself, and to love myself more
5. I dream of being a photographer
6. I dream of being a baker
7. I dream of traveling the world (I have never been outside of the U.S. before, and I really want to change that)
8. I dream of having my own YouTube channel, and posting videos on a regular basis
9. I dream of being fluent in Spanish
10. I dream of being fluent in Italian
11. I dream of being fluent in Sign Language
12. I dream of adopting at least one dog in my lifetime
13. I dream of getting married and having children (whether biological, or adopted)
14. I dream of living on a farm, with a garden, and possibly horses
15. I dream of playing the violin again, and possibly playing in an orchestra
16. I dreamed of being a special education teacher (not sure this will ever happen, as I don't like having attention on me, I never really liked school all that much, and I have a hard time learning things myself)
17. I dream of sponsoring a child (not sure from where yet, but I would LOVE to do this!!)
18. I dream of learning to sew, and making clothing, and other useful items
19. I dream of learning to play the piano
20. I dream of writing at least one song

What are 20 dreams that you have?

My March Goals/Bucket List

How is it already March?! This year is going by so fast (yes, I know only 2 months have gone by so far, but they flew by in the blink of an eye).

With a new month comes my goals/bucket list for that month.

Here are my goals for March:

• Work on cleaning up my room (at least get all the garbage and recycling out)
• Practice the violin at least 2x a week
• Put together my Downton Abbey puzzle
• Journal at least 2x a week
• Write grief letters
• Finish the cape/shawl I started making in December
• Make a loaf of bread from scratch
• Make a vision board
• Make and regularly write in a prayer journal
• Have a spa/mental health day once a week (or every other week)
• Start and keep up a regular skincare routine
• Start experimenting with makeup
• Learn how to play the ukulele
• Start writing stories
• Connect with my friends on a more regular basis
• Bake something once a week
• Dye my hair purple

What are your goals for March?

21 Things I Would Most Like to Do in 2021

I know I've posted about things I would like to do this year, but I decided to do a post about what I would MOST like to do, and try and get these done.

I tend to be a homebody, and not do much, but I would like to change that, at least a little. I have made a routine of the same few things that I do all the time, and it's gotten boring.

Hopefully, this year I can start to change that, and get out of my comfort zone more.

So, in no particular order, here are 21 things I would most like to do this year:

1. Get my bedroom cleaned up
2. Redecorate my bedroom
3. Be an STM at a Joni and Friends Retreat
4. Dye my hair purple
5. Learn how to apply my own makeup
6. Relearn how to play the violin, and play on a regular basis
7. Purchase a laptop for myself
8. Learn how to love myself, and to be more confident
9. Get into a healthy, loving relationship with a significant other
10. Keep in contact with friends on a regular basis
11. Pray on a regular basis
12. Learn how to crochet a blanket
13. Start and keep up an exercise routine
14. Visit a friend in another state
15. Purchase a DSLR camera, and learn how to take better pictures
16. Read the entire bible
17. Purchase a new sewing machine, and learn how to sew
18. Put together 3D Downton Abbey puzzle
19. Make more friends
20. Host a Friendsgiving
21. Make a vision board/book

I want to add an extra one in, because I thought of it after making the initial 21, and it is to work on my cake decorating and baking skills. I went to school for baking and pastry, and have hardly done any baking since graduating. I love to bake, so it would help to actually put the skills I learned to good use, on a regular basis.

If the Joni and Friends retreats get canceled this year (which I hope it doesn't), I would like to instead get my a second piercing in each ear. I know that's quite different from going on a retreat, but it is something I have been wanting to do for a long time now.

Although, even if I get to go on the retreat, I may get the second piercing anyway, depending on how things go.

What are the things you most want to do this year?

My Current Favorites

I haven't posted a current favorites list in a while, so I figured it was time to make another one. There a few new things that I am loving right now

In no particular order, here are my current favorites:

• Alexa/Amazon Echo Dot
  (I finally got one for Christmas, and am really loving it!)
• WREBBIT 3D Harry Potter Weasley House Jigsaw puzzle
• Milano Milk Chocolate Cookies
  (I haven't had these in a long time, and had a craving for them!)
• Dreams Binder (one of my favorite bloggers originally wrote about it HERE, but I thought she did another post about it more recently, although I can't find it at the moment. I loved the idea, and have started making one for myself.)
• The song Truth Be Told by Matthew West
  (this song says everything I have been feeling for a very long time; not just because of 2020, but before then as well)
• Going the Distance CD by Jonathan Antoine
• Artist of Life Workbook by Lavendaire creator Aileen Xu
  (I got this workbook this week, and have been slowly filling it out. I have been wanting to do better with my life, and this workbook is motivating me to want to work on the things I want to change.)
• Outlander TV show (I am working on season 2 right now, so I have a ways to go, but I absolutely love the show so far!)
• WREBBIT 3D Downton Abbey jigsaw puzzle (it's a big puzzle-890 pieces-and hard, but I love things that challenge me)

My February Goals/Bucket List

January was a bust in terms of things I wanted to do, as I lacked the motivation to do stuff. And I feel really bad about that. 

Hopefully, February will be better in that regard.

Here is what I would like to work on this coming month:

• Get bedroom at least 1/3 of the way cleaned up
• Put books I don't want anymore in a box to donate
• Put CDs I don't want anymore in a box to donate
• Put DVDs I don't want anymore in a box to donate
• Put accessories I don't want anymore in a box to donate
• Journal at least once a week
• Try making bread from scratch
• Start working on writing on book
• Learn Spanish
• Learn Sign Language
• Make a chicken pot pie
• Dye my hair purple
• Relearn how to play the violin
• Finish the cape I started making in December
• Write grief letters (something I learned about from Grief Share)
• Purchase a laptop for myself
• Work on putting together my 3D Downton Abbey puzzle
• Read at least one book

Here's to hoping that I can actually get at least some of these done!

Cautiously Optimistic and Excited

Registration for this year's Joni and Friends Family Retreats is now open, and I immediately signed up to volunteer.

But, with the way last year went, I am not totally convinced that we will be able to have in-person retreats this year.

I hope and pray that we do, but obviously since I and others don't know what will happen, I am half expecting retreats to be cancelled/postponed/changed to at-home retreats again.

My first, and only, time volunteering at retreat was in June 2019, and I absolutely LOVED it!!!

Plus, it was my first time traveling entirely on my own, so that was a huge step for me. And I am so glad I took that step.

I really miss my retreat friends, and would love to be able to see them again this year. Please be kind, 2021, and let us meet up again!!!

I loved every bit of my experience, and I am so grateful I got to go when I did. Before 2019, it just didn't work out, for me to be able to go to retreat, but 2019 was finally my year.

I made some wonderful friends, and experiences that will last for a lifetime, and I hope to be able to make more this year, and in the years to come.

I am just not sure how this year will turn out, but I am being cautiously optimistic. I would love to be able to go to retreat again!

Dear 2021

Dear 2021,

This year has been a very rough year for people all over the world, so please be kind to us.

We had more than enough of what the pandemic has brought.

It has been so hard for people around the world to deal with everything that went on. Please do not let it last much longer.

We need the connection we get from in-person get togethers, that we can't get any other way. Especially children.

I am fortunate enough that I got to keep my job (and get paid), and that no one I loved has died. But many cannot say the same, and I pray that these hard times come to a close soon.

Please let people come together in person again. 

Please let there be travel, and birthday celebrations, and retreats, and all the good things that people want to do, see, and experience.

Especially hugs, and all the good things that come from actually being with the people we love.

Everyone is tired. Everyone is frustrated, maybe even angry. Many are sick. We all need a better year. Especially those that are struggling (be it with their health, work, or whatever it may be).

Please be kind.

My Goals/Bucket List for January 2021

Like I've said before in other posts, I love making lists, and making goals/bucket lists is no exception. 

I have decided to make goals for each month, and I will see if I can break some of these up in smaller goals/steps, so I can achieve them.

In no particular order, here are my goals/wishes for January:

• Get my bedroom halfway cleaned up (there is a TON of stuff to go through in my room)
• Save at least half of the money I earn from each paycheck
• Finish the crochet cape I started making in December
• Try baking a loaf of bread from scratch
• Go to bed between 11 pm and midnight each night (pretty much every night, I stay up until around 3 am, and that needs to change)
• Wake up between 9 am and 10 am each morning (7 am on work days)
• Have at least one spa/mental health day
• Start writing book (or at least figure out the plot and characters)
• Make a vision/dream board/book
• Make a prayer journal and write in it on a regular basis
• Make a dream journal and write in it on a regular basis
• Pick up journaling again (regular journaling)
• Take better care of my possessions
• Stop procrastinating on things I want/need to do
• Put together the 3D puzzle of Downton Abbey that I got a couple years ago
• Read at least one book

Hopefully, I can get myself to work on at least some of these, and find the motivation to stick with them.