On Friday, September 30th, I found my best friend from elementary school on Facebook. I hadn’t seen/heard from her in over 15 years, so I was really surprised to find her again. But, I was so excited to find her.
But, I was also nervous, because I wasn’t sure if she even remembered me, after all these years. I was nervous to send her a friend request, because of that, and I didn’t know how she’d react.
If she did remember me, I wasn’t sure if she would be excited about hearing from me again. If she didn’t, I wasn’t sure if she would think I was some crazy person or something.
Yesterday, I finally sent her a friend request, along with a little message, about us being neighbors and classmates. I was anxiously awaiting what would happen next. I was hoping she would remember me and accept the friend request.
Well, good news!! She accepted it. Although, she didn’t send a message back, so I don’t know if she was just being nice in accepting the request, or if she actually remembered me. But, at least I can talk to her again.
Although, I don’t really know what to do next. Send her another message to get a conversation going? Wait for her to make the next move? What? I have no idea what to do now. There’s too much to say to know where to begin.
I really hope we can build up our friendship again. I want her in my life. She was my best friend, after all. I had written (or typed, actually) a letter of all the things I would say to her, if I was bold enough to do that.
I might post it on here, if I feel comfortable with that. I miss her friendship. We lived a block apart from each other, before she moved away. So I think the friendship was even more special for me.
I just don’t know how she feels about all this. I don’t want to push her or anything, but I would like to know. I would not be happy if she doesn’t want to build up the friendship again, but if that’s what happens, then there’s nothing I can do about it.
I don’t really know how to go about saying this to her, though. I don’t want her to think I’m desperate or anything, but I want her to know that I want this. Even after all these years.
I wish my mom was still alive, so I can talk to her about this. It sucks not having her around. She could give me advice on what to do. Although, I can ask my friends for their opinions. And maybe my dad, although I don’t know how he would feel about that.
I’ll figure something out soon. I hope. I have a lot of emotions going on right now (happiness, nervousness, confusion, surprise, awkwardness, maybe a little jealousy), so I want to figure out what to do soon.
Someday, if all goes well, I would like to get together with her, and talk. Hang out. Catch up on life. Have fun. Be friends. Maybe best friends. If we do get together, I would like to make something for her, that would be special. To tell her that she still means something to me, even after all this time.
Well, that’s all for now. More to come later.