Saturday, November 6, 2021

11 Years

It is 11 years today since my mom died, and I miss her more than ever.

We didn't have the best relationship, but I loved her very much (and still do), and never imagined she would have been gone as soon as she did.

It has been hard not having her here these eleven years, as she was the one I always went to to talk. If I needed to vent, or a shoulder to cry on, or just wanted to talk about whatever, she was the one I would go to.

Since she died, I have had a very hard time opening up to people, even family members. I'm not having quite as hard a time talking now, as I have people that I trust with speaking up, but this experience still brings up pain and sadness.

She was in the hospital for the last 5 weeks of her life, being so sick, and it took a toll on the family. While she was there, we spent most of our time either at the hospital, or at a hotel so we could get a break from the hospital.

As much as I want her alive, though, I'm glad she isn't sick anymore, and that she doesn't have to deal with the things she had to deal with.

My favorite memories with her, are her and I making rice krispies treats every year, laying on her bed talking about whatever was on our minds, and when my dad surprised her for one of their wedding anniversaries, by having us kids come on a trip with them.

I very much miss the little things like these, that I got to do with my mom, and I hope she is proud of us, for how far we've come these last 11 years.

I miss my mom more and more every day, and I am very thankful to have had her in my life for as long as I did.

Wednesday, November 3, 2021

Thankful in November

I can't believe it's November already. How did that happen?!

Now that Halloween is over, and Thanksgiving is on it's way, I have thought about things that I am thankful for this year. 

There is so much I am thankful for, but I will be listing 30 things here, since there are 30 days in November.

In no particular order, here is what I am thankful for this year:

  1. Family and friends
  2. My cats
  3. My home
  4. Having my own room
  5. Music
  6. My job
  7. Books (especially if they are in audiobook form)
  8. Clothing
  9. Clean running water
  10. Journaling/writing/blogging
  11. Weighted blankets
  12. My faith
  13. Instruments (I am in the process of re-learning how to play the violin)
  14. Living close to shops and grocery stores
  15. Baking
  16. Photography
  17. Arts and crafts supplies
  18. Joni and Friends
  19. Movies
  20. Games (board, card, video)
  21. The opportunity to work from home if needed
  22. Being alive for another year
  23. Going to my first big concert
  24. My local library's home delivery program
  25. Being able to connect with friends and family through text, calls, email, etc.
  26. My bike
  27. Puzzles
  28. The power of prayer (yes, prayer really does work!)
  29. Traditions
  30. YouTube
What are you thankful for? If you celebrate Thanksgiving, I hope you have a happy, healthy holiday with your loved ones!

Saturday, October 16, 2021

My First Big Concert

This past Thursday, I got to go to my very first big concert, which was Andrea Bocelli's Believe Tour.

I am still on a concert high, and may be for a while!!

Back in August, a friend of mine had invited me to go to the concert with her and her husband. I immediately said yes, as I have been wanting to see Andrea Bocelli in concert for years.

For those of you who don't know, Andrea Bocelli is an Italian opera/pop singer.

I first heard of him about 12 years ago, while I was bored at home one day. I was flipped through the channels on TV, looking for something interesting to watch.

The concert he was doing at the time was on, and it interested me, so I decided to watch it, and I have been a fan ever since.

I was able to get some photos and video from the concert, although they aren't the greatest, as I was not very close to the stage.

Here are the best pictures from what I took.






For the Hallelujah song (the one by Leonard Cohen), his daughter sang with him. She has such an amazing voice, and is only 9 years old!!!

For the last 4 or 5 songs, he would start to leave the stage as the crowd clapped and cheered, then would go back and sing another song. Which everyone loved!

I recognized about half of the songs he sang, and loved every minute of the concert.

He was amazing, as always!!

I am so grateful to my friend for inviting me, and for giving me the opportunity to go to my first concert.

Now that I have been to my first concert, I am already itching to go to more.

Not just by Andrea Bocelli, but by other artists as well.

I am so happy right now, and will never forget this!!!

Wednesday, September 1, 2021

My Fall 2021 Bucket/Goals List

Since Fall is almost here, I have been thinking of things I would like to do during the season. 

I spend my time doing the same few things, and would like to mix it up a bit. Ok, maybe more than a bit!

So, in no particular order, here is my bucket/goals list for Fall 2021:

  • Get my bedroom cleaned up
  • Repaint bedroom walls
  • Get a new bed
  • Carve/decorate a pumpkin
  • Go to a fall festival
  • Watch Halloween movies
  • Practice playing the violin at least 3x a week
  • Decorate my bedroom for Halloween/Fall
  • Go on walks 3x a week
  • Bake pumpkin pie
  • Cook Thanksgiving dinner
  • Roast pumpkin seeds
  • Make a Fall wreath
  • Crochet a blanket
  • Knit or crochet a sweater for myself
  • Bake something at least once a week
  • Make chili
  • Have a Fall photo shoot done
  • Visit the farmer's market
  • Build a blanket fort
  • Put together at least 2 puzzles
  • Dye my hair purple
  • Visit at least one museum
  • Go to the movies
  • Paint
  • Host a game night with friends
  • Make a pizza from scratch (or mostly from scratch)
  • Write letters to friends
  • Make hot chocolate
  • Make brookies
  • Take up yoga
  • Learn how to sew
  • Make caramel apples
  • Purchase and light Fall candles
  • Go on a nature hike
  • Spend a day (or two) in the city
  • Finish craft projects that are nearly done
  • Start my own YouTube channel
  • Get my driving permit, and practice driving
  • Have a girls night out/in
  • Visit a friend in another state
  • Visit a corn or hay maze
  • Drink apple cider
  • Visit a pumpkin patch
  • Make a scarecrow
  • Go thrift shopping
  • Go to the Andrea Bocelli concert
  • Learn sign language
  • Learn Spanish
  • Purchase a new pair of pajamas
  • Create a vision board
I know this is a long list, and I don't expect to do everything on it. These are just things I would like to do. 

Hopefully I can get out of my comfort zone, and do as many of these as I can.

What do you want to do this Fall?

Wednesday, August 25, 2021

People I Would Like to Meet

I have never had the chance to meet anyone famous/popular, but there are many whom I would love to meet one day.

The people on my list of those I want to meet range from actors, musicians, and people/families on YouTube. Even a former president and first lady.

In no particular order, here is my "bucket list" of people I would love to meet:

  • Barack and Michelle Obama
  • Brendan Gleeson
  • Domnhall Gleeson
  • Emma Thompson
  • Kenneth Branagh
  • Andrea Bocelli
  • Josh Groban
  • Michael Buble
  • Robbie Coltrane
  • Jason Momoa
  • Hugh Jackman
  • Jorge Garcia
  • Ian McKellan
  • Camille and Kennerly Kitt
  • Morgan Freeman
  • Maggie Smith
  • The Weiss Family (The Weiss Life on YouTube)
  • Mary and Peter Frey (The Frey Life on YouTube)
  • Garth Brooks
  • Mark Williams (Mr. Weasley from Harry Potter, Father Brown from the TV show Father Brown)
  • Buddy Valastro (Cake Boss)
  • The Miller Family (The Miller Fam on YouTube)
  • Tom Hanks
  • Lin-Manuel Miranda
  • Jonathan Antoine
  • The Knorpp Family (Knorpp and South on YouTube)
  • Eddie Redmayne
  • Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson
  • Jim Carrey
  • Viola Davis
  • Octavia Spencer
  • Julie Andrews
  • Imelda Staunton
  • Hugh Bonneville
  • Jim Carter (Carson from Downton Abbey)
  • Chris from the YouTube channel Special Books by Special Kids (SBSK)
  • The Wallace family from the YouTube channel Crazy Middles
  • Daniel Radcliffe
  • Rupert Grint
  • Emma Watson
  • Warwick Davis
  • Julie Walters
  • Jason Isaacs
  • David Thewlis
  • Gary Oldman
  • Helena Bonham Carter
  • Ralph Fiennes
  • Timothy Spall
  • Natalia Tena
  • Emma Thompson
  • Jim Broadbent
  • Pam Ferris
  • David Tennant
  • Stanley Tucci
  • Chrissy Metz
  • Christ Hemsworth
  • Liam Hemsworth
  • Daniel Dae Kim
  • Brendan Fraser
  • Pedro Pascal
Are there any famous people you would like to meet?

Monday, August 23, 2021

Current Favorites: August 2021

I haven't done one of these in a while, so I thought I would share what my current favorites are.

I have found a few new (to me) things that I have come to love, and thought I would share them here.

In no particular order, here is what I am currently loving:

  • Talking to Jesus song by Elevation Worship & Maverick City
    I recently found out about this song from a friend, and have loved listening to it ever since. It is about talking to Jesus as a friend, and how He is always there for you, no matter what.

  • Microsoft Surface Go tablet
    For a while, I was debating between getting a laptop and a tablet, and after reading reviews, I went with getting a Microsoft Surface Go tablet. I wanted something that was easy to carry around, and didn't take up too much space. It is fast, has all that I want, and is very easy to use.

  • Weighted blankets
    I was recently having a hard time, and I couldn't sleep. I used my weighted blanket one night to try and help me calm down, and it made a huge difference for me. I was completely calm that night, and have been since then. Weighted blankets really do help!

  • Sweet Tarts Mini Chewy candy
    One of my brothers recently bought these, and I was able to try it. They taste like the original Sweet Tarts, the only difference is that this is in a ball form. I love Sweet Tarts, so I knew I would like these.

  • Love in Faith clothing (loveinfaith.life)
    Love in Faith has some amazing clothing, tumblers, and other items that have Bible verses and faith quotes on them. I recently heard about this company from one of my favorite YouTubers, and decided to check them out. I have a few t-shirts already, and I absolutely love them.

  • Unlocking Us with Brene Brown (podcast)
    In this podcast, Brene hosts guests, and they talk about everything from race, literature, family, health, and much more.

  • Good Life Project (podcast)
    This podcast focuses on mental health, and how to have as good a life as possible.

  • Gardenscapes and Homescapes game
    These games are apps, which I am playing on my tablet. In both, a butler goes back to his childhood home, and helps remodel the home and garden. You get to help him choose how the home and garden look, and they are very addicting games!

  • Garden Veggie Straws
    These are SO good! I don't know what it is about these things, but these straws are addicting, and they are good for you!

  • Spotify
    I gave in and got a Spotify account, and absolutely love it. I can make different playlists for if whenever I want to listen to one genre one day, and another genre another day. I have been getting into podcasts lately, and I have been listening to them on Spotify.

Wednesday, July 28, 2021

Words That Describe Me

 

Introvert 

Shy

Writer

Photographer 

Knitter

Crocheter

Night owl

Linguist/word lover

Curious

Traveler

Violinist-to-be

Music lover

Reader

Water lover

Foodie

Empathetic

Sympathetic

Emotional

Animal lover

Imperfectly perfect

List-maker

Thrifter (I love thrift stores, and finding great things!)

Rainy day lover

Friendly

Video gamer

Board/card game lover

Daughter

Granddaughter

Sister

Niece

Cousin

Aunt

Friend

Colleague

I know this is a lot, but there is more to me than what you can see. 

So often, it is hard for me to share parts of myself, so people don't always get to see the whole me (which is something I want to work on, especially with my friends).

What words describe who you are?

Saturday, July 24, 2021

What I Would Like To Let Go Of

For years, I have been holding on to things that aren't good for me, and I want to change that.

Holding on to these things brings me stress, anxiety, and an overall unhealthy lifestyle. It will be hard to let go of these things, as I have been holding on to them for many years, but I am willing to make a change, to let go.

So, here are the things that I would like to get rid of:

Fear (of judgment, of the future, etc.)

Self-doubt

Anxiety

Depression

Feeling worthless

Negative self-talk

Self-criticism

Negative body image

Jealousy

Comparing myself to others

Worrying about what other people think of me

Worry about the future/things I can't control

Unhealthy eating habits

Spending more than I am saving

Feeling like no one really wants to hear what I have to say

I am still in the process of figuring out how to change, and to let go of all of these, but I believe I am ready for the challenge, and that it is definitely time to let go, so I can feel better about myself and my life.

What are things you want to let go? How do you plan on letting go of them?

Wednesday, June 23, 2021

Already Missing Camp

I got back home from camp Friday evening, and I am already missing it.

The week went by so fast, I am sad that it's over already.

I arrived there on Saturday, June 12th, with a friend who was also serving. After getting settled, we went to Taco Bell for some dinner. I had been craving Taco Bell for quite a while, so that was perfect.

Sunday, the other STMs (short term missionaries) arrived, and we had training, lunch, more training, and a bonfire in the evening.

Monday, we had some final training, got ready for the families to arrive, and the families arrived that afternoon.

I did not have a camper, as I was serving in the sweet shop (which is where I served at the last retreat I went to), but it was still fun meeting and cheering for the families that arrived.

We had an ice cream social that afternoon, and a meeting just for STMs, to talk about how the day went.

Tuesday, we had morning devotions, breakfast, and everyone went about to different things in the morning. I helped bake some things for when the sweet shop opened that afternoon (brownies and brookies--half cookie, half brownie treats), and then I was able to sit in on some of the activities the campers were doing.

The campers made a beaded cross keychain, and then played this game where one person had a bucket on their head, and another person had to try and get golf balls into the bucket.

At some point during the game, the director of the camp came by, and everyone was saying he should play. So, he put the bucket on his head and was ready to go.

I was then voted to try and throw the balls into the bucket, which was a little awkward for me, but it was fun. I didn't get any in, but that's ok. I enjoyed participating.

There was a carnival that evening, with typical carnival-style games, as well as bouncy houses, a horse-drawn carriage ride, a woman drawing caricatures, and a fire truck that everyone could check out.

I didn't play any of the games, but I did go on the carriage ride (horses are my favorite animals), and I got a caricature done of myself.

Wednesday, there was morning devotions, then in the afternoon I was in the sweet shop again. I helped with preparing for the parents dinner that evening, and then I got to check out the petting zoo. I love animals, so I enjoyed seeing the animals there (a pig, some baby and adult goats, ducks and chicks, rabbits, and chickens and roosters.

There was a dance on Wednesday evening as well, that I checked out. I danced a little, and watched the rest of the time.

Thursday, I helped out with a women's lunch, and got to eat with them as well. We had afternoon activities for the campers again, and in the evening there was a talent show and karaoke. I watched the talent show, and then hung out in the sweet shop for a bit.

We were right on the lake, so a couple of the days, I went down there to hang out a bit, when I needed a break. I love water, so being by the lake was so calming for me.

Friday, we had breakfast, helped the families pack, and then had a closing ceremony. STMs and families got to share what was on their mind if they wanted, and everyone was so thankful to have had the opportunity to come to camp.

The campers were given teddy bears, as a sort of parting gift from the camp, which I thought was sweet. There were a few left after everyone got theirs, and I was allowed to take one home for myself.

After the families left the STMs and leaders had a final debrief, where we talked about all that went on during the week, and how we were feeling. I am very shy, so I didn't say anything, so I just listened to what everyone else said.

All in all, I had an amazing time, and am so grateful that I was able to go this year, and I hope that I get to go again next year.

Sunday, June 6, 2021

Seven More Days!!!

Joni and Friends Retreat is officially happening this year, and I am SO happy about that!!

I have so missed the camp, and the people there.

This year, there is three weeks of the Michigan retreat, as a special for this year because of how last year went.

Week one has started today (for the volunteers; the campers/families come tomorrow), week 2 (the week I am going to) starts next Sunday, and week 3 starts the Sunday after that.

I am SOOO excited!!

I am about halfway packed, and will finish packing throughout this coming week, as I don't want to put things in my suitcase until I absolutely have to.

Michigan is one of my favorite places to visit, and have so missed going there.

I was easily able to get the time off that I needed from work (my workplace is flexible with things like vacation and work schedules) a couple of months ago, so that has been one less thing to worry about, which is nice.

2019 was the first (and only, so far) time I got to go on a Joni and Friends retreat, and was able to make several friends there, as well as making some amazing memories, and I have been itching to come back and make more of these memories ever since.

The people that have put together this year's retreat have put things in place, so we can have a safe yet fun time at retreat, while still observing precautions that are in place, due to the pandemic. They were keeping in constant contact with the place we will be staying at, to see what the situation was in Michigan, to decide whether or not retreat would take place.

I am so glad things have improved/not gotten worse, so that we are able to have retreat this year, as I know many people would have been disappointed if it was cancelled for another year.

I am so looking forward to seeing my friends again, to make new memories, and to serve the campers/families that will be coming to camp!

Do you have any fun plans for the summer?