Stop Hating Yourself

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The Grieving Process for Me

Three years ago, my mom passed away, and that really affected me. It's definitely not the same without her here. We were expecting her death, as the doctors told us she wasn't going to make it. Yet, it was still a bit of a shock. It's still hard to take in.

 

For maybe six months or so, I would cry myself to sleep pretty much every night. And I hated that, especially because I always went to my mom if I was upset about something, and she couldn't do that anymore. Which made me cry even more.

 

The only stage of grief I have gone through so far is sadness, which is actually surprising to me. I thought I would be mad that she was gone. But, I am thankful that this is the only stage I have been through. I do not want to feel mad, or any other feeling.

 

I'm doing better now, emotionally and mentally, but it's still hard at times. I still have moments where I just break down, and cry because my mom isn't here, but overall, I am doing good.

 

Shepherd Me O' God was one of the songs played at her funeral, and ever since then, I have heard it a few times more in church.

 

My mom's favorite song was Amazing Grace, which was also sung at her funeral.

 

Her death has shown me that I am much stronger than I thought I was, which, of course, is a good thing. It made me realize that if I can get through this, I can get through pretty much anything.

 

I miss my mom very much, and still love her. I can't wait for the day I get to see her again (although I hope that's not for a long time, as there are still things I want to do in this life).

Five Minute Friday:

I am linking up with Lisa-Jo Baker for today's Five Minute Friday.

Today's FMF: Truth

The truth
So hard to hear sometimes
Yet so necessary
To bear
It can heal
Or it can hurt
There are
Many forms of truth
And we
Can take it
In many different ways
Truth is a gift
We were given
As a part of life
It can help us
To move forward in life
The truth can be seen
In the eyes
Or used in words
Either way
It is a beautiful
And terrible thing
It can lift us up
Or beat us down
It can bring us together
Or break us apart
We all want the truth
Yet sometimes
We cannot bear
To hear it
Truth can help
To set us free
Of our bonds in life

Girls of God's Heart: Thanksgiving Projects

Girls of God's Heart: Thanksgiving Projects: Thanksgiving is just around the corner which for most means family, food, and football. But how do you continue to remember to truly be tha...

These are great ideas!! Thanks Girls of God's Heart girls for sharing these!!

Pope embraces ailing man with visible tumors, photos touch the world

Pope embraces ailing man with visible tumors, photos touch the world

This is so awesome! I wish more people were like Pope Francis. He truly cares for every single person on earth, no matter who they are, or what they look like. Take a cue from the Pope, and treat everyone you meet with kindness, as you don't know what they are going through.

Three Years Ago Today...

My mom passed away. It wasn't a complete shock, as we knew it was coming after a while. She was in the hospital for the last five weeks of her life, and about halfway through, the doctors told us she wouldn't make it through.

I was, of course, devastated when she died, and I miss and love her more than ever. I can't believe it's been three years already. That is three years too long without my mom.

I actually didn't realize today was the three year anniversary until my sister called, and talked to my dad. But, I'm actually glad I was reminded of it. I volunteered at the library today, so I think that is partly why I forgot about this.

While on Pinterest today, I found this quote, which is perfect for me, as my mom's death made me realize just how strong I am:

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I just wish I knew that earlier. But, I'm glad I know it now. It shows me that I can get through pretty much anything that comes my way.

I have had many good dreams about my mom, but none of them recent. That makes me wish I were still having dreams about her. I miss them.

I know my mom will always be with me, and I can't wait to see her again in Heaven (although I hope that won't be for a long time, as I still have a lot of living to do here on Earth!). I miss and love you mom!!!

Tough Times

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Why Do We Label Others? And Ourselves?

I just saw and read a post on the blog Girls of God's Heart, about labels and labeling others (you can read it here, if you are interested.), and it made me wonder why we all label others, and ourselves.

Is it to make ourselves feel better if we do that? Labels are for food, not people. Nor animals. We are not meant to be put down, or made to feel worthless, with labels.

The only thing we should be called are our proper names. Not some demeaning, attention-seeking names thought of by ourselves or others.

Labeling others may make you feel better, but it doesn't make them feel better, plus it can emotionally scar people in the long run. And it will hurt you in the long run as well.

This is partly where there is so much violence in the world. People demeaning, hurting others so they can feel better somehow. It just doesn't make sense.

Just because someone looks/acts/talks a certain way, it doesn't necessarily mean they're bad people. That's who they are, and they can't and won't change for anyone. Ever. They shouldn't change for anyone, especially themselves.

So, leave the labels for food. You are beautiful the way you are, and you don't need labels to make you any better than you already are.

Already Planning for My Operation Christmas Child Present

I am already planning what I want to put in the shoebox of my Operation Christmas Child present. I can't believe the collection date is only a few weeks away. Where has the time gone?

 

I haven't decided what age group to do a box for, or whether it will be for a boy or a girl, although I am considering making more than one box. Though, since this will be my first time making an OCC shoebox, I may just do one this year, and then do more in the future. We'll see what happens with that.

 

I am looking forward to the holidays this year, but I will definitely be thinking about those less fortunate than me. They deserve to have something to look forward to, after all they have been/are going through.

 

If you can, I would definitely recommend making a shoebox present and sending it to Operation Christmas Child, or your local drop-off location. It is an amazing thing to do for the holidays.

Five Minute Friday: Grace

I am linking up with Lisa-Jo Baker for today's Five Minute Friday.

Today's FMF: Grace

Grace-a gift
That is freely given
Even to those
Who think
They do not
Deserve it
Grace means
That you are forgiven
For your sins
For your mistakes
Grace does not mean
Everything is forgotten
It means
That you were given
A gift of life
Worth living
A life of beauty
Grace gives us
Hope for the future
Peace from the past
And love for the present
Grace can only be given
When you are open and willing
To accept it in your life
The grace we give each other is great
But God's grace is powerful
It is a thing of beauty
That nothing on Earth
Can compare to