Lonely and Misunderstood

For as long as I can remember

I have felt like

I don't belong anywhere

Even within my own family

 

I am different

And I don't like it

 

My eyes don't work

Like they are meant to

I have a little extra weight on me

I wish my feet looked like

They are supposed to

 

Among other things I don't like

There is hardly anything

I like about my body

And I wish I could change it

 

There are things my body does

That I am very embarrassed about

 

People keep judging me

Without really getting to know me

And it gets to me more than they think

 

Me being so shy

Makes it hard

To talk to people

To tell them

How I feel

 

And I wish they were

More understanding

More compassionate

And not so judgmental

 

This is why

I would rather

Stay home, in my room

Than with people

Who don't really like me

 

I feel so inadequate

Being around others

Who are so much more

Confident in who they are

In how they look

 

I feel like

The people who

Are my friends

Are only my friends

Just to be nice

 

I just feel alone

And misunderstood

Most of the time

 

And it is so hard for me

To break that

 

I wish I was different

I wish I was normal

YouTube Channel Favorite: SixBlindKids

This is another relatively new find for me as well. SixBlindKids is a family of 9 (mom and dad, a biological son, and six adopted children, all six of whom are blind, with other conditions as well).

They document their daily lives, how they live, how they help their kids learn to be as independent as possible, and their experiences with everything that comes with having children with disabilities.

They are one of the nicest families I have ever "met" as they truly care about each other, and others outside of their family.

One of the girls has a job, and does well, and the others are in school or living on their own.

The parents are big advocates for disability rights, and for their children, and I love how they just go about their day, and how they live their lives, as well as their part in the disability community.

I am so thankful to have come across this channel and family, and can't wait to see what the future holds for them.